Your presence in the absence

You're gone.
You're gone and now there's silence.
You're gone and everything's right again.
You're gone and I'm peaceful.

You've left, not because you wanted to,
But because I asked you to.

And I feel cold, but I'm smiling.
It's dull, but I'm happy.
You're gone and I don't know why I'm crying-
Either way I try to keep on smiling.

But in the deep, cold silence
I still hear your voice singing
I can feel you in the wind's whispers
And I see you when the moon's shining.

And I know you haven't left me
Even though I try to deny it.
Despite the fact of your absence
I know you still keep an eye on me.

It hurts, it bothers me and I'm desperate.
There's nowhere I can hide
'Cause I know you'll find me.
Even though you're far away
You're so close I can hear you.
I can almost taste you
And it bugs me.

It doesn't matter how hard I try to keep yu away from me,
Deep inside I know that's not how I want it to be,
Because I hide in places where you'll be able to find me,
I peek from teh other side of the door just to get a glimpse of your shiny face,
To remind me of how you are
And try to convince myself that I'm not missing out on something great.

I can't manage to escape,
I can't fnd a way to make you go away,
I don't know why the hell do I want you to stay.

I can't help your presence in the silence,
nor can I help to miss you in your absence.

You're haunting me,
I don't know if I like it
And it bugs me.
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It bugs me...